Week #15 – Glimpsing the Great Machine

Inner workings of a plane

So it’s Week 15, and I find myself staring at a blank screen.  What should I say this week?  What’s important for me to say, this week?  (Don’t worry – I promise my ruminations today will be shorter than those of week 14.)

Thoughts swirled around through my head as I started a couple different drafts, thoughts too fleeting for me to properly catch hold and examine.

Nummy tuna juice!So I went for a walk around the house, pacing the hallway, round the kitchen, back down the hallway to the bedroom that serves as my office, down the hallway and ’round the kitchen…  Sometimes I can just think better when I’m moving.  (Law of Relaxation, anyone?)  I parceled out some canned food for the cats (nothing makes them gather faster than a little bit of a treat – usually tuna juice.  I pop the can and they all come running, then mill around my feet meowing in various tones of complaint at their characteristic volumes, telling me I’m not moving fast enough.)

Don’t know if you’ve ever heard of Jim Butcher.  One of my favorite authors, he writes the Dresden File series (yes, they were books before there was a TV show).  One of my favorite quotes is from the book Grave Peril.  “One night when I couldn’t sleep, I mentioned to Michael that I was worried about the reprecussions of my workings, the harmful magic I had dished out.  I worried that it was going to come back to haunt me.

“‘I’m not a philosopher, Harry,’ he said.  ‘But here’s something for you to think about, at least.  What goes around, comes around.  And sometimes you get what’s coming around.’  He paused for a moment, frowning faintly, pursing his lips.  ‘And sometimes you are what’s coming around.  You see what I mean?'”

In the book, the sentence takes on the tone of retribution – but it can apply to virtually any situation when the Universe uses us to get someone else what it is they’ve attracted to themselves.

I had a moment like that this week.

I’m not in the best shape, physically speaking.  (Round is a shape!  Pear is a shape!)  Staying trim and athletic is really more work than I feel like putting in just now.  I do like to walk, though.  Once ‘around the block’ out where I live is 2.8 miles on county and country roads.  I’ve never actually seen the point of gym memberships, not when I have a road to walk.  So I’m not entirely sure what prompted me to accept a one-month trial membership at a local Anytime Fitness; I’m doubly not sure what prompted me to sign up.

At least, I wasn’t until yesterday.

For those who’ve read my Week #4 post, Jerry’s hip replacement surgery had been scheduled for the 5th of February; at his request, Mayo put us on a waiting list to move up the date if possible.  Well, the surgery date was advanced to the 14th of January.  (Tomorrow we get to spend all day at Mayo doing all the preparatory work.)  Now, yesterday when all the shuffling was in the works yet Jerry accompanied me to Anytime and hung around as I took my walk.  I introduced him to Corey, the guy who owns and runs the location, and we three got to chatting.  Jerry said he’s been wanting to get back into shape, and was especially eager to start work after his surgery, but wanted to be under the guidance of someone who knew and understood medical limitations.  Turns out one of the personal trainers is studying to be a Physical Therapist; basically perfect for Jerry and his situation, as well as giving her the opportunity to work with someone who has a genetic condition that’s somewhat rare.

Bald eagle outside office window

I see you seeing me

It’s not the first time the Universe has used me in that fashion.  It is the first time I’ve been aware of the fact.  (Though looking back I can detect others, such as the time fifteen years ago when I told an acquaintance who was complaining that her life was stuck on “repeat” that we all face the same situation, the same question, over and over again under different specific circumstances until we get the answer ‘right’ – in other words, learn what it was that situation existed for in order to teach us.  See MK15:7)  Even those of us who march to our own drum still move in time with the Universe.

I’ve also had the opening lines from Fullmetal Alchemist running through my head this week – any other anime fans among the MKMMA?  “Humankind cannot gain without first giving something in exchange.  To obtain, something of equal value must be lost.  This is Alchemy’s first Law of Equivalent Exchange.”  Who’d’ve thought that a ‘cartoon’ would have stumbled on a Universal Truth?  (Well, okay, me, but most people aren’t looking for wisdom in an animated show.)

So what’s the point?  Just that we’re writing our own story – we design it, we create it, we live it – but at the same time we’re being incorporated into the stories of the people around us, something not everyone is aware of.  In the study of the Qabalah it’s referred to as the Vision of the Machinery of the Universe, the experience of Yesod, the ninth sphere.  And once we receive that vision, courtesy of the Universe, we can never be unaware of it again; we’ll see it everywhere.

And frankly, it’s a fascinating study.

Qabalistic tree

12 thoughts on “Week #15 – Glimpsing the Great Machine

  1. Hi Ellen, I have always enjoyed reading your thoughts. Thanks for sharing. God bless you on your journey. Please read my poems I wrote in my blog Week 11 and give me your feedback if you so desire. Thank you.

  2. I really enjoyed your post, I really liked your ending comment ” we’re writing our own story – we design it, we create it, we live it – but at the same time we’re being incorporated into the stories of the people around us, something not everyone is aware of.” I have been more aware of that this last week, contemplating how some of our choices are shifting to others and how their choices are shifting to us. It gives us and them opportunities to make additional choices and choose to grow or stay status quo….the continuing flow of writing our stories…

  3. Ellen…Great post and like the comment above, your awareness is inspiring! I’m guessing your writing craft, as well as your spiritual studies have honed that awareness. I look forward to your posts every week….As for your husband and his hip replacement, he is (if he’s like me and several others I know who’ve had it done) going to be wondering why he didn’t do it sooner. I had mine done in 2006 and haven’t lost a step! Once the rehab was done, I was climbing around the Sierras out here where I live like it was my job 🙂

    • Dennis, that’s awesome! Congratulations on a successful surgery and recovery! I am really looking forward to Jerry’s – I hurt with him whenever he starts hobbling, and he can’t do museum crawls with me anymore. Thanks for the encouragement!

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