Wow – is it Thursday again already? Yep, must be – it’s written on my schedule to write and post a blog today.
You know, honestly, I follow along with the MKMMA, I do my best to meet all the requirements, and yet I find I am learning more about myself, what I’m meant to do, how to arrange my life so that I am happy, through my sunrise project on Barn Bluff than I am through the MKMMA exercises and webinars – making the walk, taking the pictures, writing my photography blog. I suppose it’s partly because there’s lots of time for introspection and contemplation of the world within while walking the trail. But it’s also that I’m out here doing something that I enjoy. If you’ve gotten all this way into the MKMMA course, you should already be doing things that support your deepest desires – the DMP, the index card with the Plan of Action and all, should take care of that.
But if you’re not – if you’re still wrestling with who am I really, and what am I meant to do? – then do yourself a favor. First of all, STOP OBSESSING. Mental effort defeats itself, remember? Just… get out of your own head. Commit to a daily series, whether it be writing a poem a day, or taking a set of pictures, or sketching, or painting, whatever you like to do. Find the time, find the attention to spare for it. You’ll discover that the very act of commitment, followed by the activity every day, will accelerate the process of change.
And along the way, you’ll inevitably find yourself answering the questions of who you are, what you want, where your life’s purpose lies. Because meeting the demands of that daily series is very like another type of meditation; you’re focused; you’re present; you’ve opened the door to that secret, creative part of your mind and heart and you’re listening to what it says. It’s… like studying the reflections in the water in order to understand what they’re an image of.
And I’ve discovered that in making the walk up to the top of Barn Bluff, in taking pictures of the sunrise and being aware of what’s around me, the Master Keys and Og and the exercises all make so much more sense. I can apply the principles to my actions, my thoughts, my plans. It’s a connection that I just don’t feel in the Alliances or during the webinars. I read, I listen, I understand… but I don’t feel. And I see blog posts and shares in the Alliances, people who are manifesting exactly what they’ve always wanted, which feeds belief and enthusiasm, which accelerates the change, which in turn fuels greater belief and enthusiasm, and those folk are radiating gratitude and appreciation of Mark, Davene, and the guides… and sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with me, that I continue to view the people and the process with the eyes of an outsider, an observer, a non-participant.
On the other hand, maybe some of that is how it’s supposed to work. We start out dependent, feeling our way into the power of the world within through the help of Mark, Davene and the guides, taking uncertain steps into the darkness until we find our light – following the gurus, however little they want to be thought of as such! But then, because we’ve been openly and yet subtly retaught how to think for ourselves, we graduate to forging our own meanings, our own interpretations: Haanel, Og, Campbell, Wooden, Allen, Hill, as their wise words apply to us, specifically, instead of a more sweeping, generalized, one-size-fits-all outlook.
The principles remain; solid, unchanging. But the details of the application become more personalized, tailored to our own uniqueness.